[Now playing: "Making friends and acquaintances" Cursive]
I don't know what to say. I am without words. In the face of death, I am a confused, lost child. I don't know how to handle it. If it's someone I've never met... Someone I've spoken to once or a few times... Someone I know well. It doesn't matter. I just don't know what to say or feel.
Today was very overwhelming. To see so many people feeling the pain of losing someone at the same time was horrible. John was not my good friend and I won't say I have millions of great memorys when I had merely been around him on several occasions. But I will say that from what I saw first hand, he was a very nice person. And I cannot imagine how the people close to him must be feeling. Family, friends, and people who were around him regularly... Even if they were not close to him, having someone, no matter how "unimportant" gone from yout life forever, creates a larger void than some may believe.
Death in highschool is way too soon. Life has just begun, and it can end so quickly. I think alot of people, even those who did not know him, or hardly knew him, are so devastated not just because a fellow student is gone, but because this may be their first real exposure to someone dying way too young. I know that goes for me- and its scary. It's a slap in the face saying "hey! life could be over at any second. enjoy it while you have the chance. you will never know when time has run out." Of course, I've always kept this in mind, so I try to make it my goal to enjoy life, but this is a tragic reminder. A reminder that death does happen, and it's not just to the elderly, or other people.
I really can't think of anything else to say.
Rest in peace.
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